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Wednesday, October 4th, 2006
7:11 pm	Dave and I back together.. haha.. those who are reading.. anre prob going wtf. But that is their problem. We sorted all the BS out , I was up till 3am. We aorted it all out, he realizes, he treated me like Crap with a capital C. We both know a relationship takes alot more than love to make it work and we are very devoted. Just thinking about it all, makes me dizzy. I just want to scream sometimes about it all, I wish people, I won't name names think he is not good enough for me, I might have said some of bad traits. But he is truly the best guy I have ever known. Time will tell. But I know I love him, and he loves me. BTW- I am finally sculptin myself into a mighty fine indivual :). Current Mood: pensive (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 3rd, 2006
11:12 pm	:( Well~ Dave and I are on a break. Iam so depressed. I want to call him, he used to be the person I could rely on, my support system, now I can't. I want it to all to work out. I love him dearly--I wish it could all go back how it used to be. I love him so, I never thought, we would ever be on a break, but it was ness. This seems so sureal, like is this really happeningto me? My goodness, I have my wedding dress for crying out loud! He is a wonderful guy, he just to come to some realizations about what he really wants. I thought it was perfect, it was, maybe that's it, it was too perfect. Ohh - I want to call him, but it was me, who wanted the "Break" plus it is like 1am there. I can't sleep a wink, and of course no one is up. Oh goodness- KS would be such a change. I love him, I want to make it work... oh I hope so, I hope so dearly. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Speeding Cars Imogen Heap (Comment on this)
Monday, October 2nd, 2006
2:33 pm	Holy Cow it's October! It is crazy it is already October- that is whack! Current Mood: groggy Current Music: c89.5fm (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 28th, 2006
11:18 pm	Oi I have to start out that I miss Dave so much!!! Sometimes I think I will burst--- maybe not that extreme, it just would be so nice to see him and be able to snuggle with him and feel safe in his arms again. It is esp hard when I dream of him and I wake up and his not there. Iam very happy he is in KS for his family, and I know they need him right now even more than I do. I cannot wait to marry him- he is so the man for me, he gets all my little idiosyncrasies. Now Iam back at school, apart of me wants it all to be done with; Iam so sick of school. Then another part of me is like HOLY CRAP--> teacher land. But I figure, a sub is good way to start/assisant. I know whatever I do I will be happy, because Iam marrying the best guy there is out there. :) Tuesday he will have been gone 6weeks. He says he will gone an additional 2-4weeks, which kinda makes me feel numb, but I deal. It is funny, in a good way, hardly anything in my classes is due in Oct, and if I do have HW it is very small. So, I will plan before Dave gets back to TRY(the emphasis is on TRY) to get the bulk of my long term assignmnets done- which are due in November. I can't believe Sunday will be October and I haven't seen Dave since middle of August. Current Mood: melancholy Current Music: Perfect Touch- Sandra (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 23rd, 2006
11:33 pm	Work It On All Out Now Man this upcoming Tuesday Dave will have been gone 1 month and 1 week. I miss him sooooo much :(. I don't have much to do, so I figure why not get into glamazon status :). I have been watchin alot of Queer Eye for the Sraight Guy recently, esp the ones where they focus on getting people to lose major weight. This has really inspired me to look great. I took an abs and an abs/glute on campus, both were free because it is the 1st week back. Iam STILL hurt'in. Dave says Iam still hurt'in cuz Iam not used to such an intense work out. He thinks I should work out @ least an hr, if I work out. Well, that's crap he doesn't work out at all, and then I feel weird that I need to prove something to him, but I know he loves me just how Iam. I have been doing some exercises that I learned in those free classes in my room. I am thinking about taking some of the classes on campus, so when Dave gets back he will literally say "Dayyyum!" Haha. Oki.. Iam so sick of stupid freshamn, bein so loud, it sounds like humongous hamsters above my head suringing around. This is my inspiration to look like: Current Music: Every time we touch - Cascada (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 3rd, 2006
10:41 pm	Well, the summer is wrapping up; it is something I can feel. Dave is in KS, as a means of support for his dear family and mother undergoing brain/lung cancer . My prayers are always with them, it feels sureal when I think that this is really happening. Poor Linda, not only that but, that I can't beleive Dave is in KS, still. We waited so patiently all school year to live together, and I thought we had one more month together, not so much. When I think on that, I feel guilty. The apt, feels lonier without Dave, but it is mine in my own right. It is my oasis away from everything, including my parents and their hoqutie toqutie world. I have been going around the apt collecting things I will need for college, makes me melecoly. It is hard to go back to how everything used to be, but one more year, right? As far as wedding stuff is concerned, Iam a blushing bride, but it seems the only one "blushing." My folks want to invite all these people, but where are they, if they are indead soo important? Dave is in KS, caring for his family, which makes me feel planning a wedding, not the right time. No one, outside from Dave and my closetest friends seem affected. I think that is because my life is in such Limbo. I am tempted to just elope. Avoid all the stress, all the hub bub. I know his mom wants a wedding. My stupid judgmental parents friends. I saw them at a Huskey game with my dad. As usual didn't stick up for me, or didn't notice, cuz he had a bottle of wine to drink-oi. Through all this cacoas, i relax when Dave said"we are different, we don't nessessarly fit "the mold" whatever we do, it will be us, our day not theirs, and above all it will be beautiful." My mom ordered this beautiful dress from Jcrew, and I got some beautiful antichy earrings to go with. So that is all for now- growing up is hard to do.. I think that is a song, but they were right ;) Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: Ist it Love? Iio (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 15th, 2006
11:48 am	Well, Hello everyone. Recently, things have been very difficult. To start, Dave's mom has lung cancer, stage 3(stage 4 is the worst). She just had a bi-cept-tempy on Tuesday to get rid of cancerous lip-nodes. She starts Kimo and radiation this week. As you can imagine, Dave is extremly torn up about this, Iam as well, but not the same. Dave's way of coping is to throw himself into World of Warcraft. He says playing in a fake reality, helps him him deal with the deal one, cuz he isn't dealing with real reality; he blocks it out. I have been trying to be patient and understanding of his coping. I make dinner for him, and it is ready for him when he gets home from work and plays the non-stop until he sleeps. On top of this his temper(it literally has a name: the EDDY temper-passed down in his family)can go off at any given time, even what I might say he would laugh at before. His emotions are all out of wack. He apologized last night for neglecting me this week, and even though this has happened it gives him no right to treat me like this, and isn't playing the game at all tonight. It pains me to see him so sad. Last night, when he was done playing and we were just talking, he said he was so depressed, he'd rather go to bed. It is so hard to see the one you love most, suffer. I reminded him, we should think postive thoughts for his mom, that is what she needs, not negative thoughts. I said even though it is sad news, we have to keep optimistic, and keep her spirits up, I said life is too short to mope. He agreed, which is good, I am trying but is stressful and frustrating and sick of crying. Plus, he asked me what I thought of the wedding. I explained I want a small intimate wedding, close family and friends, and maybe go back to my folks house for quiet recpetion. I don't want to pay too much, it is just one day. It will still be nice, but I don't ask for much. Ironically, he wants all the frills, and I'm the one who watchs the SYTLE channel-good grief. He wants all his groomsmen in tuxs and himself ina tux, a white wedding cake, even if it tastes bad( I wanted chocolate, me in a traditional wedding gown( well duh), he wants catering( my folks said they could do alot if it was at their place) he want a recpetion at the church( it is nice, but more $$$, plus what the hell are they gonna do?) I reccomenned this nice lady, my mom also recommend this photographer, who doesn't charge too much and is very good at what she does( Dave said I was wrong and all photographers charge an arm and a leg--ugg. Plus I wanted to go to europe, for a honey moon, not pay that much on wedding and go to venice. He says, it's too much. Well my folks are giving us $5,000 and whats left over use on a trip. He says, too much- well it is if we go his route plus he saysd not going to europe until his mom gets better or passes- cuz wants to use his vacation time to see her. Oi - what is a girl to do, well for starters Iam having sushi with my mom. lol Current Mood: determined Current Music: Kiss the Sky (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 30th, 2006
11:05 pm	Sat: Dave drove up @ exactly the time I thought he would come. I was so estatic to see him, I nearly pounced on him and knocked him over. :) Watched Gilmore Girls, which we call "GG." He is so funny to watch, while watching, he gets stressed over silly relationship problems, which I find endearing, however movies/shows with lots of action/suspense puts him right to sleep, HA! :) It was extremely windy sat. We nearly got blown away- or at least wip lash from the wind. Today: My room feels very spacious now -he took his cabinet away. I love it when he comes, or I come to see him. It is hard to imagine or look back on my life when he was not apart of it, because he is so apart of it now, it is impossible not to think of him not in it. I always get so sad when he leaves, usually Iam calm and cool, however today he moved alot of his stuff- so when I move out, I don't have to move much. When I came to my room, it looked so empty - I just sat down and cried. I perked myself up by gettin a burger and onion rings(rarly get) from U-totem burgers(YUMMY!) while watchin Monty Phyon and the Holy Grail- I absolutly adore that movie! Tommarow: I only have one class @ noon and rehersal for one -acts @ 6:15pm( we are watchinga puppet show). Hopefully I will get some workout time before class- oi my one and only work out shoes are soo muddied up from my Hike with Amanda this past Friday - but ahh well , if people give me weird looks, I will say "hey at least I'm workin out my booty.. or tell to f- off" well I prob won't tell to f-- off.. but I will think it. Iam happy - I did landary - I hope, tommarow I will also get alot of studing in for my children's lit mid-term for May 8th! Well night all. :) Current Mood: peaceful Current Music: Playing by Heart- Yanni (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 28th, 2006
10:55 pm	Thanks Erica- for that :). I did call Dave back, I cannot sleep knowing something is unresolved. And yes we did get into a monster fight. However it ended in "I Love You." He feels awful of what he said, he just has been stretched for time, and stressed and doesn't have alot of time. He wants me to call him later, or he will. We are still growing, I am still learning. I know I love him and he loves me. He knows he has alot to work on. Now Iam tired, and my trash can is filled with kleenex. Current Mood: numb Current Music: World at Large-Modest Mouse (2 Comments |Comment on this)
9:31 pm	Complications Today was the my 1st day of classes. Went pretty well. As far as my parents go, yes relying on them is non-existant, but Dave-it would have never crossed my mind in my wildest dreams. I call him, he wanted me to call (mutiple times). He asked about my day, I tell him. He says Iam taking time away from his work, there is dead silence, I ask how his was and he just says ok, I don't brinka "notepad" with me to track my day. I didn't beleive I talked to long. There was more dead silenece, I asked why do I call you only to be silent and tell me I'm wasting your day? He said I don't know, why do you call me? He said the purpose of this is to inform the other person of what we did, we did, nothing more to say. I said I need you to be there for me, like Iam for you, and he said what are you going through, and said I was foolish for feeling like that. I hung up. I am ALWAYS there for him, when ever Iam in distress, he acts like an middle schooler. What am I doing? He says he loves me- but his actions speak volumes, he says hateful things and later apologizes as if it never happened. I don't know what to do. I love him to much to see anything to go to wrech and ruin. A girl in class today, during introductions said she was getting married next summer, as well as myself. I felt melocoly at that statement, not at the fact that I am, but that my parents or hardly anyone, but friends have noticed. It is still early, I just wished I had a family I could call and be comforted, rather than harrassed. Dave is stressed and working. Summer- I will get down and dirty in planning. Dave still hasn't called me back. Iam scared to call him back and get into a monster fight. Oi-why does everything have to be so complicated? Goodnight all. Current Mood: crushed Current Music: Talk- Coldplay (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 23rd, 2006
3:10 pm	Oh Lord! Iam typing this from Dave's lovely apt. Iam recovering from surgery(got my mole removed yesterday)and my parents, esp. my mom, so stressful. I had to go everywhere yesterday with a bandage the size of a golf abll on my face. Oi. My mom, is such a pill and stubborn as anything. Can anybody be excited that Iam getting married? Omg! She is hung up on if Dave's career is gonna work out. I explain to her taht anybody could lose their job at anytime, but he is doing the best he can right now, and he loves what he does and that is one of the most important things. My mother is just plain exausting. I told her she has stop preachin the choir, and agree with Dave and my decision or else she will lose us both. Instead of saying she is supportive, she always a but in there, and like I have to, whatever. She's impossible. A church both Dave and I like is up for major consideration for a place to have the wedding. The church also has a lovely area for a reception, with a beautiful stainless steel kitchen behind. The area for the reception has lots of windows, wonderful for natural light. Other than reserving a place- (which we will get once members, and the preacher will be ours)is: flowers catering(aptizers-mid afternoon) wedding favors ( plus bubbles when Dave& I drive off) a dress shoes arrange hair and makeup send out invites make invitations a photographer get disposable cameras a cake make a wedding cd(s). guest book Register for gifts I think that is it. I think I feel more stable and secure with things once I gte a dress and reserve the church. Dave wants to take care of the photgrapher if nothing else, he once worked for a professional phographer. Current Mood: anxious Current Music: c89.5fm (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, March 13th, 2006
9:57 pm	They are my family and yet they feel alien. I am back. E-burg as we locals call it. Oi I can't WAIT to get back to the west side and to my Davie. I miss him, I miss the apt and curling up next to him. I feel independent, adult and content with him. Then my reality gets slashed in half when I visit my parents. They act like I'm some stupid child, don't reaspond when I talk to them my mom makes awful remarks about my creative ideas about being a future teacher. Both contantly berade Dave-as if his job is not good enough. He is happy, Iam happy, when I am there, it reminds me of how unhappy I was, like I was a captive in a stuck up neighbor hood with stuck up parents and I was the hippie child. When my said she heard of bridal shows and discussed it, she suddenly realized what she said, and everything became horribly awkward. They are my family and yet they feel alien. I know what I want, I always have, I'm gonna follow my heart, and if they don't agree with that -well, life will go on and I don't have see them. Sometimes it does feel like Iam trapped in Gilmore Girls, and seeing my parents is like Friday night dinners. Current Music: White shadows-Coldplay (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, March 10th, 2006
9:43 am	Ok- I'm in Seattle - YES I made it!!! Man- it is very scary taking the bus at night. The bus didn't even pull up to where it normally does, so THANK GOD, I checked-holy crap. Plus the bus driver NEVER checked our tickets-whats up with that? Did I waste $35-damn well the driver drivin back to E-burg will probally check. Dave was cute, when I got there, wearin his black leather jacket and ablack shirt-Damn blew my socks off-MIGHTY FINE! When we got in the car, he started blaring Smooooth Jazz-haha he loves that stuff. As you can imagine we were zonked when got back. Early this morning before Dave went to work he had to do an emergency food run, so I wouldn't starve and have food to eat. I think I might have to venture off to Fred Meyers, and get some food, if I want to prepare something before he gets home. Hey I might go really crazy and get toe-nail polidh-red! :) I might have to join Dave tonight for a work party-oi I hate those I have already been to one of his work parties @ his old job @ CWU-it's soo awkward, and I have no clue about anything they are all talkin about-like a stupid click. Ahh well, if the party is happen'n I will be the supportive girlfriend/fiance that Iam. I have started to think of songs for the reception, most of them are from Nat King Cole, Ella Fitzgerald, and Aretha Frankin lol- and some French music toshed in there. My mom gets back from Engald Sunday night-oi I hope i get no more drama from her-oi. Well ok -wish me luck in an empty apt in a neighborhood in Seattle Iam soo not familar with. Well-the bums REALLy only come out @ night. Current Mood: optimistic Current Music: The Riddle (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 9th, 2006
7:37 pm	Hello World Well ~ I have been lazy and have not been writing. Well yeah Winter quarter is over, for me anyway.. except on the 15th @ noon I have to present a scene in basic acting. My scene partener is GROSS-he spits on me, he is always late for practice, and Dave thinks he likes me =EWWW!!!! I love starbucks frappuccinos, I'm so glad CWU is sellin them now-YEA! Iam takin the grey hound tonight-oi I hope it goes well, I have no classes tommarow and this time was only time Dave could pick me up from the bus stop. Hopefully Spring quarter will go well, Iam auditioning for the one-acts on the 30th, wish me luck**-I have to do it for my minor. I miss Dave- he is soo freakin wonderful, OMG THE HOTTEST MAN IN THE FREAKIN WORLD-hehe. :) When I see him tonight- it will be late and we will probally just fall asleep, but together :) :) - YEA! I hate long distance- it sucks mjor ass!!!! Current Mood: excited Current Music: Listen to Your Heart-D.H.T. (Comment on this)
Monday, December 5th, 2005
2:29 pm	This is the map of World of Warcraft!! Current Mood: chipper Current Music: Gwen stephani- What ya waiting for? (Comment on this)
2:27 pm	World of Warcraft is soo much fun. I have been havin a ball with my Hunter, Mssantah, and Dave is Santuh. We are both dwarves and Iam a hunter with my trusty pet, Nala. :) We play most nights with Dave's folks and use Ventrillo, it's kinda like instant messager, but when you press Q, you can hear their voices, it's fun and keeps us in touch. Arg-- Finals.. I only have two left, 2 were take home and one did last week. I have one tommarow in Math @8am=Yuck and one on Weds @ 12noon in ED soc= OMg. I hope I do well. Then on Friday leave to Seattle. Sat=Levanworth with Dave and my mom and the 13-go to KS= Woo HOO Current Mood: content Current Music: take your time--from c89.5 (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 20th, 2005
9:28 pm	I'm ENGAGED! YUP... I'm engaged... Dave proposed August 18th!!! OMG, Iam still in shock, and yes, I said "yes." I totally knew he was gonna do it, so he and my mom completly I mean completly threw me off, so much so, I thought he might never. So on the 18th we went to U-village, Yunnie's Bubble Tea and UW campus under a cherry tree on a bench. He was saying how much he loved me, and I didn't even register. Then all of a sudden he got down on one knee and started pulling out the ring, and I didn't believe it, I was, " your lying, put that away, I'm dreaming". Then he said, after a few min of disbelief, he said I will work my hardest to make your life the best it can be if you'll have me, Abigail Jane Pitts, will you marry me?" After a few sec of dead silence, my mind racing w/ shock, serealism, am gosh am I too young, but oh what the hell, and said " yes" then he swung me around, and said i was as limp as a fish, cuz i was so socked. That night there was a full moon, soo full it was yellow, with a yellow relection upon the water as though it was made for ues. I'm soo happy and the ring... oi, took my breath away white gold, diamong was his great great grander mothers, he picked out the band, prob no wedding at least for a couple yrs, my folks think we should wait as do we we. But the engagment is just starting to sink in as well being together for a full yr straight. YEA FOR DAVE & ABBY!!! P.S. I have never been more in love!! Current Mood: loved (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 15th, 2005
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Sunday, May 29th, 2005
11:32 am	I had Coffee today with Davie(aka Dave) Sometimes I feel like this : Current Mood: optimistic Current Music: Speed of Sound by Coldplay (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 24th, 2005
4:19 pm	Iam addicted to !! I started out with Andrew and Sophie and they were doing fine, until I accidently made Sophie leave and Andrew didn't want anything to do with her. So, I scrached that one and made Charlie and Sophie 2, they were doing GREAT, I mean I literally must have " said wow this is all under control" until the stove caught on fire, tried to get sophie out of the way, she wouldn't move, and Charlie was putting it out. Then all of a sudden the grim-reeper comes. I was freaking out at this point yelling at the computer, saying " why, why could you do this?" Then the therapist came to see Charlie, and he was clucking like a chicken, and the place where Sophie was, was nothing more, than a pile of ash. Later on, I created maria, with an awesome home ;). She met Charlie and began to form an attachment with him, however back at his home, Sophie 2 was haunting his home. He and Maria none the less became more close, and he asked her to marry him, she obviosly said "YES!!!" Then she asked him to move in with her onto her estate, and now they are married tryin for a baby !!! LOL. Other than that Dave here is working on his game, and every now and again yells something thats me look at him and cock my eyebrows. Any ideas for a money term to use in museum game? Current Mood: artistic (Comment on this)